Life goals

"you are actually quite naive, aren't you? i work on guilty till proven innocent...thats why you get into trouble with people!"

i'm tired. i have been told by umpteenth friends that i'm too trusting and naive about people...

but i really don't want to live on suspicion. how can i live this way? what kind of life is this if i'm constantly suspicious of people telling me half-truths... i can't live like that.

financially, i'm worried about money, and worried about my future, everything seems to collide together, but i also understand something...

i can't control everything. i'll just have to tae that leap of faith, and take all the careful steps i have been doing already. 

one side of me feels extremely guilty...i'm twenty-eight, i wish i could take over the financial responsibilities but there's another side of my brain that also says, no, there's at least decades more for me to do so... so just stay the course and focus on my other plans because that could mean that later on i can fulfil my financial responsibilities and earn my living.